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I don't know what is with me but i have been more straight up to people. Like i dont give shit about how you're gonna feel after i tell you something. I mean i try to hold it back but it just seems like every little thing piss me off.

All i have been thinking for the past few days is my results and how everyone has been treating me.

What if i have cancer? What if i have a few years left to live and all i have been doing is throw my life away when there are people out there who wants to live it? What if i already do have cancer and i'm not telling anyone shit? I'm not ready to face death. I have yet to see the world. I have yet to make my mum proud of having me as her daughter. I have yet to live my dreams and see everyone i love around me at their happiest. I'm not ready to listen to what the doctors have to say though i'm left with two days.

Secondly, i realised during these sleepless nights that i have been a tool to most people. I mean dating wise, i have been just a " i'm bored so i shall just talk to you " tool. I have been a " i'm lonely " tool. I have been " i will just put your hopes up " tool. And mostly, i have been a " i like the attention " tool. I mean, what the fucking fuck is wrong with you people? If you want someone else, just have the fucking balls and guts to tell me and i will just fuck off from your life. Don't fucking leave me hanging for no fuck, waiting and hoping for no shit.
Friends wise? Yes, i may be too nice and friendly and shit. But that gives no one the right to fucking borrow money from me and just ignore me like you don't owe me shit. Well excuse me just in case you didn't realise, that fucking nice watch you managed to buy at a discounted price was thanks to me. I mean, i love all my friends and i'm more than willing to be there for everyone. But most of you just need me when you need something. Have any of you ever thought of this? " Everyone turns to her when they are troubled and she is truly there for everyone. But who does she turn to and is truly there for her? " .